Depending on Jesus

After years of seeking for something to fill all of my voids, I finally had a revelation.I had been empty inside for so long, yearning for a missing puzzle piece, in which I didn't know what it was or where to find it. I came to the realization that I was not living right. Not only my lifestyle and the ultimate price I would have to pay for it...but I realized that I was relying on self way too much. I trusted my self in so many circumstances that I shouldn't have..(obviously they went poorly) However, I should have been relying on God. Whenever I was weak, I should have been relying on His strength (2 Corinthains 12:9). Whenever I was sad, I should've relied on his comfort (Psalm 34:17). Whenever I felt lonely, I should have relied on His loving presence (Proverbs 18:24).

The puzzle piece I was missing was God. He had waited so patiently for me to get it, to understand That He was all I ever needed. Nothing in this world was suffice, it wasn't able to heal me and make me whole where I had been broken. The void that had took a toll in my life for so many years was GOD SIZE. Nothing was ever going to be sufficient. and He knew that, God always wanted me right where I am today in order to be whole. It was me that allowed myself to be broken for so long, I'm the one who did not seek His face. I thought knowing of Him was good enough, but it wasn't. So, He waited patiently for me to run to Him and give all of me, to trust Him, to DEPEND on Him. So that's exactly what I began to do. I learned how to have blind faith, which I consider a heavenly gift. Blind faith is a belief without true understanding or perception. Learning to have blind faith came natural for me, because I always knew it was possible..I just didn't exercise it on the regular. However, it is not easy for everyone to do. It's hard for people to have faith in something they cant see nor understand.

 For example, if I need my bills paid and I have no money. I would have faith, blindly, knowing that God would provide for me. Although, I have absolutely no understanding as to how He would provide. However, I would still believe that He would do it.....That is blind faith. it's beautiful but sometimes it can be scary. Only because we're mere mortals, we tend to worry..But why should we? If I know my God to be a provider and I know that He cares for me...He would never leave me nor forsake me. 

"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. " Isaiah 41:10

There has been so many times when the only solution I had was God. I had no other choice than to believe and know that He would work things out for me (Romans 8:28). Even when it felt as though there was no solution, God would always prove me wrong. Every time I depended on Him the outcome would always be miraculous. I would praise Him just for being mindful of me. God is so loving and He wants to take care of all of us. but we do have free will. If you decide to live outside of His will, you are bound for disasters and destruction. However, if you die to your flesh and live in the spirit trusting God, you will prevail!

"For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.." Matthew 16:25 

So ask yourself, do you have a missing puzzle piece, or a God size void? Is your situation looking hopeless and impossible to fix? or maybe you just want to become a better person? my suggestion, Depend on Jesus. He is always there when we need Him. He may not be on our time, but He is always on time. I speak from a place of experience. People always ask, "How do you believe in God when you cant see Him?" I simply respond saying, " I can see Him, everyday I watch Him move in my life. He never ceases to amaze me." Why live without Him, when you can live with Him? I truly pray that you will begin to trust God like never before, that He will show up and show out. I believe God will open doors for you that no man can close. Jesus is able and His arm is never too short to save. I will leave you all with this last scripture below. Please, meditate on it and believe with all your heart that Jesus does care for you.

1 Peter 5:7 "Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you."

Check out this song Cant Live Without, by Hollyn, a christian musician.

God Bless,

 xoxo  Ariel